Could have had it all...thank god you didn't...

You could have had it all
I wonder if you realize what you lost
I wonder if you know
That you could have had it all

I think about it all the time
I think about how you had it all
And I was left with nothing
You weren't there to break my fall

Like a slimy leach
Taking and taking til nothing was left
You drained me of my life
You would have taken my last breath

Now I look back and see
How much of nothing I really had
In retrospect
You were never really a husband or a "dad"

So when you ask to talk to her
Never again.
Why would I be so foolish?
You made your bed.

When you ran away
It disgusts me to think you were ever worth a fight
Someone else did me the biggest favor
So I could finally see the light


Above all else
You are nothing to her now
She doesn't even know you
She calls someone else Daddy now

Don't hate because I am doing so good
You thew it away in an instant
You could have had it all...
Thank God you didn't. 

Just a few words...

I need a blog. I need somewhere I can write and be me. Not sugar coat shit, not pretend everything is peachy. I can't blog on Mypsace anymore since it is like a ghost town, and FB, well forget it. Not only is there no blogging area, there are people on my page that I have to put on a front for. Lame, ya. But oh well here I am. I'm 34. Damn sometimes that really bothers me, I'm not really ready to be my age. I've come along way though. As soon as I get this divorce going and get my career going, my life will really be on track. Anyway, this is just the beginning right? So there will be more to come, I promise.